the hood
i came home from work yesterday feeeling absolutely miserable. i've been a huge downer the last few days, and it's really been grating on me. i could not figure out what my problem was. sure, there are some circumstances that haven't swung my way, but my reaction seemed completely overboard.
so last night i forced myself out of the apartment, and took a walk around my neighborhood. i felt like i was seeing the place with new eyes.
all i could focus on was the poverty. the homeless. the alcohol. the drug dealers. the garbage. and no, this didn't make me hate where i live. it made me realize what a punk i was being. here i am complaining about my life, when if i take an honest inventory of where i'm at, i'm doing pretty damn well. i just got a fantastic job, i can actually AFFORD to have my car in new york, for goodness sake, i live in new york! i have an amazing family, i have great friends and i have my health. what on earth do i really have to complain about? this isn't to say that despite all of this i don't have problems...but holy goodness, i need to stop letting my perspective get so out of whack.
there is a huge world out there. and i am ignoring it right now. i've disengaged myself somehow. last night, i really started to care again. something clicked on that has felt dead for awhile.
and i'm grateful. it felt like being doused with cold water. i feel awake. now...the real question...
how do i make this my norm?
so last night i forced myself out of the apartment, and took a walk around my neighborhood. i felt like i was seeing the place with new eyes.
all i could focus on was the poverty. the homeless. the alcohol. the drug dealers. the garbage. and no, this didn't make me hate where i live. it made me realize what a punk i was being. here i am complaining about my life, when if i take an honest inventory of where i'm at, i'm doing pretty damn well. i just got a fantastic job, i can actually AFFORD to have my car in new york, for goodness sake, i live in new york! i have an amazing family, i have great friends and i have my health. what on earth do i really have to complain about? this isn't to say that despite all of this i don't have problems...but holy goodness, i need to stop letting my perspective get so out of whack.
there is a huge world out there. and i am ignoring it right now. i've disengaged myself somehow. last night, i really started to care again. something clicked on that has felt dead for awhile.
and i'm grateful. it felt like being doused with cold water. i feel awake. now...the real question...
how do i make this my norm?